i will return

oh yes... i will be back, in full effect soon.

I know i've said this before, but this time is different. I've dealt with my demons and have loads to write about. And even more links than you can shake a stick at

*shakes stick*

see what i mean?

your eyes don't deceive you...

yes finally, a post. God only know how long ago my last one was, but it's been f'ing crazy.

I won't go into complete and full details at the moment, but trust me, it will be long and it will be detailed.

So hold onto your hats, this will be a bumpy ride.

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Must it take a life for hateful eyes
To glisten once again
Five hundred years like Gelignite
Have blown us all to hell
What savior rests while on his cross we die
Forgotten freedom burns
Has the Shepard led his lambs astray
to the bigot and the gun

Must it take a life for hateful eyes
To glisten once again
Cause we find ourselves in the same old mess
Singin' drunken lullabies

I watch and stare as Rosin`s eyes
Turn a darker shade of red
And the bullet with this sniper lie
In their bloody gutless cell
Must we starve on crumbs from long ago
Through these bars of men made steel
Is it a great or little thing we fought
Knelt the conscience blessed to kill

Must it take a life for hateful eyes
To glisten once again
Cause we find ourselves in the same old mess
Singin' drunken lullabies

Ah, but maybe it`s the way you were taught
Or maybe it`s the way we fought
But a smile never grins without tears to begin
For each kiss is a cry we all lost
Though there is nothing left to gain
But for the banshee that stole the grave
Cause we find ourselves in the same old mess
Singin' drunken lullabies

I sit in and dwell on faces past
Like memories seem to fade
No colour left but black and white
And soon will all turn grey
But may these shadows rise to walk again
With lessons truly learnt
When the blossom flowers in each our hearts
Shall beat a new found flame

Must it take a life for hateful eyes
To glisten once again
Cause we find ourselves in the same old mess
Singin' drunken lullabies

Band: Flogging Molly
Album: Drunken Lullabies
Track: 01 - Drunken Lullabies

Lyrics from LetsSingIt.com
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  • Current Music
    Moxy Fruvous - The Drinking Song (live)

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job job, i have a job.

hope is just a 4-letter word

hope can only take you so far before reality bring you back (i f*cking hate reality)

It's been a while for all of you as for me as well. I'm sorry for neglecting my postings but it's been pretty rough. Granted my days really don't get much more exciting than: computer, eat, bathroom, tv (order depends on day), but there is so much more going on.

As you all know: I am stil jobless. And i am down to my last shred of hope, which is the encouraging words of mishu. I love her so much and it must be killing her watching me like this.

I don't get it.

I bust my ass: working on projects for my portfolio and other artwork that I can present, prepare for interviews, getting suit cleaned, etc

I apply to jobs: online, newspapers, phone calls, emails, letters, references, cover sheets, snail mail, salary requirements and history, nice layouts, catchy intros, personal statements, multiple resumes, etc etc etc

I go to interviews: fake smiles, make good impressions, more smiles, cold rooms, blank stares, worthless questions, best/worst qualities, we'll call you, eat shit letters, handshakes, copies of resume, human resources, etc etc etc etc

these people determine the rest of my life, it would be nice if they appear to F*CKING care about it. Do they realize the amount of hope they give people as they throw out their resumes? Do they realize they are the last shred of hope for most of these people? Do they realize they are f*cking with the lives of others?


They sit in their cushy jobs and "production-line" through people. Everyone tries their hardest to make their resume just that much better than someone elses. But it doesn't really matter. Remember that portfolio i worked on for so long and all that preparation? 3 interviews not a single one will lead to a promising job.

I hate this. I can't just go home and live off my parents (for obvious reasons). I need to pay bills and rent. I need money and work. I need... ah f*ck it

I just need more hope...
  • Current Music
    head banging against table


monday 10:30am....

am i nervous?

you freaking know it. (need some screaming music now to calm the nerves)
  • Current Music
    mudvayne - not falling

Scutigera coleoptera

it's creepy, it's carnivorous, it's small... and it's in my apartment.

Aren't they freaking adorable?

They're called "house centipedes." They live in basements and junk, and eat other insects. So, technically they are beneficial. Whoopie. Honestly they're freaky. To watch one scurry across the floor is a sight due to their speed. They're f*ing fast too.

Well folks, what I thought to be silverfish are actually these centipedes. But who really cares what they are called. They're still gross and weird me out (a direct quote that I agree with from Hellbent).

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Well onto a happier note:

Here's Metallica in the style of South Park!

Master! Master!

well i'm off like a herd of turtles.
  • Current Music
    Metallica - Live Shit - Binge and Purge - Disc 2 - 03 - Fade To Black

once again, the bastard is sick

yes folks... i am once again not feeling all too great. Don't know what it is yet, but I promise it's not happy.

So to keep things all nice short and sweet, here are some links for you.

Where Are the Toons Now?

Reminds me of Behind the Music that Sucks from Heavy, funny as hell, especially if you remember the actual characters.

Images Central

Largest Comic Book Database on the Web!

Santa Balls 2

Reminds me of bejeweled, but it's still fun to play.


Yet another awesome flash game from Orisinal. Check out the site, there are plenty of more games.


Flash movies about pavlov's dog experiments. Very cute.

Enjoy the linkage!
  • Current Music
    sniffling sneezing coughing